so be ready.
coz itz gonna be f*ckin' jiwang.
*hahakzZZZ!!!!!
&so"HE"asked
& so dad asked me, well rossy too. if i was going out with anyone? & if all this while i've been talking & meeting with 'her'?
**i wish!!
& so i told them that doesnt mean i talk on the phone with someone or meet someone, that has to be 'her'...
yeah! i hoped so but no...
i talk and meet...
friends...
girls...
but NOT 'her'
**sorry to dissapoint...
*a rough part of ur life u gooin thru,been having it since the first time i knew u...
**be strong...
***i here for you
****eventhou u wont realize it
Friday, June 27, 2008 // 12:59 AM
my future
so 'the company' is sending me for DIPLOMA!!!
i'll show everyone i'll will make it to the top...
& be someone...
after that...
a DEGREE?
maybe...
inshaallah~
Thursday, June 26, 2008 // 12:10 AM
changes...
it so sad how u see people change...doesnt really matter how good or bad they become, how happy or depressing they can be. some cant change and take them years to realize wats good and bad for themself, some sadly can change just in a split second. im not saying im good but i've become worst too. but i've been like that since i dun noe how young. but its realy sad to see some people surrounding me starting to drink alot and smoke, wen i noe they deserve better than that. but some people are just blind coz they need someone to really slap them out of this. such sweet innocent looking people becoming alcholics and smokers wen they were the one who despise all that so much..haiz~ such a pity...
i was sick for the last 5 days. i was down with a fever. i went down to the hospital and they took a blood sample from me to test for dengue. thankfully it was nothing. thanks to all that wished me. i'm okay everyone.
21st of june 2008. eventhou i was sick, i go on with plans to meet her up. coz i wanted to give her the photo album i bought for her. she said she wanted to do the photos with me but at last we chilled together at a water breaker @ ECP. there were fighter jets flying in the sky training for the NDP. it was nice watching it uh. we first met at parkway parade and started out laughing session and went to ECP...till around 10pm. we didint stoped laughing. yeah, i enjoyed myself... it was just like old times...
look at the heart shape the fighter jets did uh. quite amazing view. see it?
she's enjoying the breeze i guess.....
it was amazing how her head still fits right perfectly on my shoulder that day. it was shocking that when i was looking down on thy feet, and i suddenly looked up,i saw her sad face over her shoulder just starring at me. but wen i asked why, she just smiled sadly, shook her head and turned back slowly.it felt so wrong that im spending my time with someone's else fiancee. it was sad to meet her on that day, coz it would be the last time i promised mself to.
the next time would be on her wedding.
thanks for spending some 20 meaningfull days with me. i hope it pays off all the wrong doings i did to her in the past. and i hope she'll be strong in the future.
thank u...
and so i stil dun understand...
why my life is so COMPLICATED...
Monday, June 23, 2008 // 11:28 PM
fate..
wat that have been going on...
last week i went clubbing twice uh...to dbl O and MOS...
DBLO (Thursday)
wow..that place gets me drunk everytime without fail!!!
so i had a couple bottles of stout before i went in...
had around 8 jugs of housepoor on our table...
a i dun noe why la...but i bought 1 whole tray of shots...
thats what i call DRINKING! yeah...
and so i met fadly, tin tin...& khai...he was my frens bro-in -law friend...
then there was this gerl who came up me and it was like...
MIMI!!!!
wit my soggy face i ask WHO ARE YOU!!!??!
atira la...
haha...ya ya, wak will always tell me, jgn mi..dia tu da ada matair..haha...
really nothing on my mind...but she like..lawa u noe..lawa? ish! suka la aku tgk muka dia!!!
and wen i woke up the next day, i had a luka on my back and it waS bengkak..same goes to my right fist uh...didnt remember why...
next was MOS...
wak wass so drunk he wanted to start beating up people.. but i was quite sad wen we both were walking he started to say...
"mi, napa fadilah tak ikot..aku nak jumpe dia..."
pity wak uh...4 years...
wen he told us he wanted to tunang...everything suddenly changed...
den...
i saw her bro at 7-11..
he smiled at me uh, shaked my hand...
and everything i ask was...
"kakak ko mana?"
"kakak ko baik?"
"kirim salam kat kakak ko k?"
funny that i only just asked him about her...
den we i told my frens that was her bro...
some said... Who? that BITCH?
hahaha...and i nearly wanted to slap that persons face...
NEVER CALLED HER THAT OK?!
marah nampak...
someone asked me a favour...
to ask me to stop drinking...
coz maybe wen she saw how i drink that particular nite..i even finished her drink...wen i was talking to her on the fone after that i was drinking...
she asked me to stop...
never saw a person drinking a small bottle of jim beam in 10 minutes rite...
"eh ko gila la mimi..."
i love listening to music especially this song...btw his shoes are what i call NAB! love his shoes...anywae i'll always listen to my ipod uh...
and i always makes me.....
Wander..hayal...
last week i nearly again for the second time this year, was nearly hit by a car...good thinghe stoped in time...
and will i was a work carrying some boxes, 3 metal pillars 2m tall nearly hit me on my head.. a good thing i had fast reflexes,i only cut my hands and hurt my wrist...
someone lost their cat....reminded me of her when snowy got lost...
i didnt know why but yestaday, i dreamt of HER, bro, abg lemi, wak, nis, adik, kakak...
but suddenly i woke up...@ 3am...
and cant sleep uh...
i really miss her...
and im still waiting...
i dun wanna give up waiting...
no matter wat happens , i always try uh...
coz i noe GOD isnt cruel...
i'll make mysef happy will waiting aite...
maybe that will help...
eventhou u wont reply my msgs...
eventhou u wont pick up my calls...
eventhou u dun care anymore...
i'll always be waiting for u...
**mimiBOTAk
Monday, June 16, 2008 // 10:10 PM
eh takpe lah eh
Cakap la apa yg korang nak...
Aku punye pasal la aku masih nak sayang dia ke rindu dia ke apa...
korang semua tak paham la okay!
terima kasih ajelah...
TERIMA KASIH BYK2 OK!!!!!!!!!!
Aku tetap akan tunggu dia....
Sunday, June 08, 2008 // 12:48 AM